It doesn't matter how smart, charming, fun, or nice you are, none of that matters. Just look good and you'll be getting ahead. If I ever have kids (and that's looking like a LONG shot at this point) they are going to be in shape and healthy so help me. It would sure give them a head start in this world it seems.
All I want is one bloody chance. Maybe I won't even screw it up! I think I have a lot going for me honestly. I have a great job which I love. I own my own house. I have a truck and a motorbike that I own outright. I stay active and have an odd but fascinating sense of humor. Well maybe its not that fascinating but I have to talk myself up somehow. But none of that is good enough, cause I don't have the looks to back it all up.
Why is it that it takes 10 people to lift you up and make you feel like someone worth something, and only one person to make you feel like shit? The worst part is all I probably needed was to come home to someone and vent about the idiots I hear on the road, or the frustrating things I deal with in a day, but I don't have that luxury. I'm not good enough for that apparently. Whats wrong with me?
This past year has been probably the toughest in my life. I was always so sure of myself, about my own self worth. I'm starting to lose that and it scares me.
I need to smile more, because I don't know what happens when I can't anymore.
Sorry for venting like this. I've had a rough day and as pathetic as this sounds, this blog is all I've got right now.
I do have to put SOMETHING happy in this post though, and this made me smile. Stop rolling your eyes, I laughed!
Congratulations! This type of thinking while it sucks now is the catalyst to meaningful life change! I hope you find what works for you.
ReplyDeleteRima is still single thus debunking your looks theory. People look deeper than what you have or what you look like. Deep down you know that. Question is are you okay with that?
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You are not fat! Put earbuds in and don't pay attention to anyone else except to avoid getting run over. People heckle because they are mean SOBs who want attention and hate themselves so they have to take it out on other people.
ReplyDeleteAs for the rest, I sympathize and identify with those feelings quite a lot. Nobody for me to come home to vent to either, I also own my own home and vehicle, etc etc. Apparently I also suck and aren't good enough either since I got dumped too. So, you aren't alone. : )
Yeah except you have 5 guys just waiting for you to be single and ready to date again, you won't be single long.
ReplyDeleteThat's not really a fair comment. You know it's not that cut-and-dry.
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